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in my head i replay our conversations over and over until they feel like hallucinations. you know me i love to loose my mind. every time anybody speaks your name i still feel the same

i ache i ache i ache inside.

i dont know why im missing you. well no thats not true, i know why im missing you i just dont know why its so all-of-a-sudden. i dont know where this full on, undeniable, shockingly painful home-sick feeling is coming from. maybe its from finding out you dont care. maybe its from feeling excluded. maybe its from all those memories being brought up again after i worked so hard to forget them.

i dont know. alls i know is that i miss you. and it hurts. just like it did the first time. and the second. and the third. and i know that i still dont know how to make it stop.

i dont know that i want to make it stop.