if you just realise what i just realised then we'd be perfect for each other then we'd never have to find another. just realise what i just realised then we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other.
just realise.
this has got to be by-far the worst i have ever felt. im feeling every horrible feeling that has ever been felt by anyone. all at once. im doubled over in pain, loosing my fluids from crying. i must look a mess. not that that matters. not that that would matter to you. it never mattered to you.
ive missed out on you. i used you up. i hurt you over and over again. always thinking that you deserved it, that i deserved better. no you didnt. no i didnt. i didnt even deserve you. and now that i might maybe possibly in some strange way be good enough to be your worst i cant be. ive taken too long to realise. so long that now you cant realise. you wont realise.
i dont deserve you to realise.
but thats not stopping me from wishing otherwise.
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